Twins

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You laughed, knowing no one sells those types,
But I believed at least you would believe me
Just the way I thought two summers ago
While I was unraveling my deepest parts to you
How you brushed away my remarks
And told me not to throw a pity party.
And I wondered how could a girl with green eyes
Say these kinds of things
And finally, when I confessed
My sins and dilemmas,
Panic attacks out of nowhere
You just smiled , embraced me
And told me to toughen up.
Handed me a store-bought Coke can
And told me to get six hours sleep
The whole time I was explaining
I looked out for signs
Signs of empathy in your eyes
But the green emerald shade kept giving me second thoughts
About my own existence.
And like a picture- perfect girl
I carried my attire,
Kept up with rejection.
And one day, the breakdown hit me,
And I’m still hoping for the day you will come
With white roses and dimple cheeks
To see me at my new place
The place for the lost and never found.

-Rtr. Mihiwamee Pabasara Senarath